Adding Some Pictures Of Me?

Well I want to add a picture to my profile and so far this is one of the ones that I have so far. I have to work on making a few others so that I can add them here.

Yuck! Someone Was Flirting With Me!

Ever go out somewhere and you're kind of in a rush and you know that you don't look your best? You figure no one is going to mess with you right? Well it turned out to be wrong on this particular day. I was outside waiting for a ride and a man who was working on someone's house saw me and wanted me to come over to talk to him. I figured he wondered what I was doing just standing out there and I was going to explain to him that I was waiting for a ride. Well that wasn't what he wanted to talk to me about. He was telling me how "attractive" I looked standing there and he said he liked my breasts! Well I have to admit that if there is one thing about me that is noticeable it is that I am definitely NOT flat-chested! Now I wasn't wearing anything provocative but it was hot outside but I was just wearing a simple, short sleeve blouse. Now the blouse was kind of clingy because it was made out of some kind of knit material but I did not "feel" attractive at all - much less thinking that I looked attractive! Well he proceeded to tell me how "nice" I looked and if I ever needed any work done that maybe we could come to some kind of "arangement". Well I just did not feel that I was even "attractive" enough to be even having this kind of conversation and really the whole thing was turning me off. It could have also been that I was just in a "pissy" mood because it was so hot outside and my ride hadn't come yet. But this was not the kind of conversation that I wanted to be having. He was an older man and had a little bit of an accent. I tried to politely get away from him and thank goodness my ride came. But "yuck" all the same. Not because of the man really - its just that I wasn't in the mood. Now probably when I AM in the mood no one will flirt with me!

The Philadelphia Area - Danger, Danger!

Philly's Dangers

A very interesting blog post from someone that is a MySpace member. While I have heard a lot about Myspace I really don't want to join because I'm a member of so much now and its hard keeping track of everything now. But since I'm not a member I can't post a comment to the blog so I added a link to it here. I really don't know what to say about this because since I was born and raised in Philly I'm kind of like an insider looking out. It's very hard to change people and let's face it some people are down right scared.

I Am My Own Worst Enemy!

I have seen this appear a couple of times in my horoscope and I would have to agree with it. I can conjure up all sorts of things in my mind - both good and bad - but for the most part they are mainly bad. I think of the most worst situations and in reality they hardly ever come to pass. Why can't I just think positively? I do try to do that but its like there is this constant battle between the good thoughts and the bad thoughts - with the bad thoughts usually winning. I definitely have to work on this more!

"Love Actually"

Love Actually

I just recently saw this movie the other day. I am a sucker for romantic movies and I'm more of a sucker for accents! They just drive me crazy! This movie has a whole lot of storylines - 8, I think to be exact - about love. The movie also has Alan Rickman - in a nice casual kind of role where he's not the bad guy (almost), Colin Firth who is just gorgeous! and it has Hugh Grant in a role where he is not playing a cad! It also has great looking (and nice-bodied) Liam Neeson - all gorgeous guys! I was probably watching the movie mostly because of the men! But I got that the meaning of the movie (and it said so in the opening scene) is that Love is Actually All Around!

Heat!

About the only kind of heat that I like is the heat of passion (-; The weather is getting so much warmer now and I'm thinking about my hair and I'm thinking about sweating! I hate when I sweat! When the weather gets hot and humid I sweat even more! Sometimes I think that I sweat more because I worry about sweating more! There's this old comedic joke about how black people hate hot weather and I know that this black person hates the hot weather! I'm more of a fall/autumn, wearing a jacket kind of girl. So as the weather is getting warmer and more hotter and more humid I must find ways to keep myself cool!

I Was Supposed To Wash My Hair Today

Had a lot of other stuff to do today so I really didn't get around to doing it. Sometimes I just dread it and put it off as much as I could. But you know what happens when you don't wash your hair? It starts to itch and then it starts to itch real bad! And since I got this "not too happy with it" perm I'm hoping the perm I gave myself will fare better after I wash it! What kind of shampoo do I use? Pantene! It's one of the most expensive shampoos there is but I like the way it smells and it just makes my hair feel clean! When I don't have enough money to buy the Pantene I resort to the Johnson's Baby Shampoo that I can usually get for around 99 cents! But if I can manage it I buy the Pantene which should last me about a month and a half. But for now I have the Pantene - now I just have to wash my hair!

The Hair Thing

Well this wasn't one of my better perms but I'm stuck with it for the next three months. I shouldn't have bought the one on sale. Instead I should have gotten the one that I alwyas do! Well like they say "that's just the way it goes". At least my hair is sweating out with the hot weather so I should be very grateful for that! I have never been one for wearing wigs. They are so hot and even more so in the warmer weather. For now I'll just usually wear my hair in a ponytail or just put on a cap and be on my way! Hope nothing fancy comes up because I don't know what I'll do with my hair then!

A Hairy Subject

I don't like the way my hair sweats out during the warm weather so I perm it. I do it myself as opposed to getting it done because number 1 it'st cheaper and number 2 I just can't sit still. When I do it myself I can do other things besides. If you're not familiar with this process, perming my hair makes it straighter and more manageable so manageable in fact that I can just get out of bed and have the most gorgeous looking hair without having to do anything to it. Plus I can just put it in a pony tail to have a decent-looking hairstyle. I permed my hair today mostly because I have to go to a funeral and I know that its going to be hot. This perm will last me three months so I won't have to worry about it for a while. I have been doing this for many years now and I like the results that I get. I don't go in too much for the "newest" and latest hairstyles because I like the one that I have. I thought about getting a weave but so far I just don't want to go through the hassle and since I never had one before I don't know anything about how to maintain it. The whole process takes me about three hours but the results are worth it and like I said once it's done I don't have to worry too much about my hair for the next 3 months! I'm mostly a tomboy at heart but you should have seen me today with my blow dryer and hot comb. The only time I even use the hair dryer is when I perm my hair. It does make me feel "girly" though - (-; and I think the men like the results too!

You're Never Too Old To Have A Relationship!

In the past 2 days I have had conversations with people who have said that they don't think that they will ever have a relationship with someone. In one of the conversations the person tried to convince me of the same thing but I wouldn't hear none of it.

Personally I believe that one is never too old to have a relationship. People marry at all kinds of different ages! There's nothing wrong with wanting to be with someone you like and who just makes you feel good but you haven't found them yet. That doesn't mean that they aren't out there. It just means that you haven't found them yet.

I'm glad that I haven't given up on the notion of me being able to have a relationship just because I'm a certain age. If other people want to believe that then so be it! (But I know that it's not true).

If you're going to be down on yourself and constantly put yourself down, how will you expect anyone to like you?

More on the controversy surrounding Don Imus

Here is a link to an article where Snoop Dog was interviewed about calling women derogatory names in rap music

http://www.aolsportsblog.com/2007/04/12/snoop-dogg-dont-compare-me-to-don-imus/

Judge for yourself and leave a comment if you're so inclined

I Gave Myself A Treat Today!

I LOVE seafood but I usually don't get it because I can't afford it. But while at the grocery store today I decided to buy some crab legs! I love them! If you ever wanted to seduce me with food then seafood would be the way to go! I haven't tried the other kinds of seafood like oysters although I heard that they are a great aphrodisiac.

Hopeless Romantic!

I saw "Starbucks" mentioned and my thoughts (or should I say fantasies) turned to romantic scenes of having a cup of coffee with with a man that I'm attracted to. Maybe I just watch too many romantic movies but you can have a lot of "romance" while having coffee at Starbucks - if it's with the right person. I wonder if he's attracted to me too. If he is he's not showing it or maybe I just don't see it. We talk, we have a nice leisurly conversation and some things come out that you wouldn't really come out in a normal conversation. I smile. He smiles. Where will it go to from here....... Like I said this is one of my romantic fantasies. It could happen though.

Cold Weather - Yuck!

I have never been a fan of cold weather! Today I stepped out to get some cigarettes and that cold wind hit my face and I didn't like it! Although one of my fantasies is being somewhere where its cold I'm inside a nice cottage being seduced by a fireplace and not outside freezing in the cold!

Headache!

Boy do I have a headache right now. (I suppose typing at the keyboard isn't helping too much). I know that it is a "stress" headache because I have some things on my mind and of course it is stressing me out! Any potential money slaves out there want to help and make my stress-filled headache go away?

Even Though I'm A Tomboy At Heart........

There are occassions when I like to get "girly". I was reminded of this when I found out that I had run out of my favorite perfume. I won't tell you what the name of it is but I will tell you that it is a musk perfume. For some reason "musk" perfume has always appealed to me. It sort of reminds me of that "animal attraction" kind of thing. It smells great and the scent gets stronger when you sweat and over-exert yourself. I call this my "seduction" perfume because I like to where it when I'm trying to seduce someone (or when I want someone to think that they are trying to seduce me). It's like I'm an "animal on the prowl!" So I'm out of it and I will have to definitely get some more soon!

Am I A Temptress or What?

I have this favorite perfume that I LOVE to wear. Its a musk perfune and it just smells so good! I always wear it when I want to seduce someone. It doesn't always work and when that happens I have to think of something else - but it happens more often than not! Sometimes I just wear it for fun just to see what happens..............

Hot Flashes?

Is this what it is I'm going through? The weather has been cooler but I have been so warm to the point that I'm sweating! Sometimes I'll wake up in the morning and it will feel as though I have been in a sauna all night! At first I thought that maybe I had the flu or a virus but it has lasted for a few weeks now. I'm not in any physical pain except for the occassional headache and my gums hurting every once in a while. I think back to that "All In The Family" episode when Edith Bunker was going through it and it sounds like a lot of what I'm going through.

What Do I Like To Do For Fun?

Interesting question that I saw on one of the message boards and I thought that I would answer it......

 

It really depends

 

I enjoy my peace and quite but I love a good wine along with a good meal along with a good conversation.  Today would be perfect for that because its cold and rainy outside plus its windy.

 

Maybe I'm just old fashioned and/or mellowing in my age-maybe?

My Blog's Worth?

I don't know what's up with that little button at the bottom of my blog.  Its supposed to show what my blog is worth?  If its really worth $0.00 then I'm really going to have to do something to "up the ante"!

I've Been Away For Awhile But Now I'm Back!

Things have been overwhelming and I am just getting back to the calm!

 

I'm going over my email because I have a lot of catching up to do.

 

I still do think of myself as a Goddess and this whole "Financial Dominatrix" thing still interests me.  In fact I'm going to have to go over my past posts just to see where I left off at!  I do already kind of know where I left off at.

Wow! I haven't posted since August!

Don't worry though - I'm still around-LOL! Have I changed my views? - No! Am I still a Goddess? - Yes!

I Am Inforcing A Rule!

To differentiate the true money slaves from the unfaithful pay slaves I am enforcing an application be completed and a mandatory tribute within 20 minutes of finishing it. Failure to do so will result in my refusal to acknowledge that you exist.  Excluding and falsifying information on the application will render it void. Any chance to serve me will be forfeited then you will be blacklisted. Do not contact me for free attention because I simply will not provide it.  If you are seeking that type of relationship, there are plenty of online dating groups you can join. I am the bitch that you were afraid to approach growing up. I am the woman you desire but can't have. I am everything you want to be and everything you can never attain. My flawlessness is your weakness. My talents will lead to your demise. You can feel it in your bones which explains why you are still reading my page!

My Rules!

It is indeed a fact that you will never understand why you exist until you pocess the ability to submit to me! Many of you will come, try and fail terribly but a few of you who are the "chosen" shall master submission to me and gain my acceptance. It is your calling to help ensure that I am happy and well cared for! You will Make this known by serving me faithfully. Your mere reason for being is to be of service to the master of supremacy ! You will learn my rules, the laws of my land and you will embed them into your conscious and subconscious self. The only way that you will ever feel complete is by serving me, I am the way, the truth and the light. You sought me, found me now you
must convince me you are worthy of being in my presence. Your reason for being is only a few thousand dollars away ! You will carry the my Seal of servititude with pride and dignity. You will earn your keep. It is your duty to do something meaningful with the money you have and there is nothing more meaningful then satisfying your Mistress. I am here to be adorned, worshipped, admired and feared this is my place. It will benefit you greatly to be obedient for disobedience, mischeif, and wickedness will cost you more. It is so that the wealth of the wicked shall benefit the righteous ! If there is anything that stands between you and your Goddess remove yourself from it, so that you will not loose favor and be cut off.

I Am!

After a long and fruitless journey living the myth of women being submissive to men. I discovered that the natural dominance and agression I contain cannot be tamed. I am now asserting myself into my rightful position, wearing the title that I was given by way of birth, you will honor me, you will obey me, and you will learn to love it. Because I said so, because it is so, and because there is no other way into my world. My world is a wonderful place, where a big, beautiful and elegant chocolate Goddesss rules all things ! I am the alpha
and omega.

Having some more Yahoo problems....

I was answering some of my email and found out that some of it is a little old.  Some of the email is from Yahoo 360 which I am having trouble accessing.  So while I'm trying to solve the problem I,ll also try to keep up with the email as well.

A Massage For You?

Actually I'm playing around with words.  Although paying me a tribute is the first step that you have to take in order for this Mistress to take you seriously, there are other things that bring me pleasure as well.

The topic of massages came up and I thought that wasn't a bad idea.  Who would get more pleasure from the massage?  Me or my slave?  What about massaging me with oil?  Again, who would get the most pleasure from this - me or you?

Underwear?

What Your Underwear Says About You

You're a total rebel who doesn't conform to any rules. P.S. - It's a jungle down there! You're also way too lazy to do your laundry more than a few times a year.

The Underwear Oracle

I LOVE flirting with married men!

They always seem to be more horny than the single men!  Why that is I will never know.  I just figured that since they were married that they were getting all the sex that they could handle!  Well I guess they aren't though.

I love teasing them and flirting with them.  It doesn't take much to get them going either!  I think they love it too.

I Haven't Posted In A Few Days.....

Did you miss me? Good! A good Domme knows how to make her subs squirm!

Am I A Bitch?

You bet I am!  Men can be such jerks sometimes.  You let them know that you have a webcam and then they talk sweetly to you to "let them in" and once you let them in they start giving orders!  Well I don't take orders - I GIVE them!  And if you can't handle that then move on!

Flirting With A Married Man?

Do you know what your husband is doing?

This afternoon I "flirted" with "Bob" who's a married man who was home alone.  Let's just say that I made him feel REAL good!  Of course after that I was flooded with so many pm requests that my computer crashed!

Think I'm A Tease?

You BET I am!  And that is why you keep cuming back for more!

Would You Like To Hear Your Mistress's Voice?

Go to my personal ad at:

http://fantasyxyz.bravehost.com/personals.htm

Hear what I sound like and then decide for yourself

Do you want to be dominated?

I offer distance domination via email to slaves who wish to devote themselves to Me from afar.

Remember slave, My time is extremely valuable and regular email is most definitely a privilege.

I provide an email domination service for all slaves .

The charge is $50 a month for 2 emails a month

Serve your mistress NOW!

ICQ trouble!

I'm having a little trouble signing on ICQ.  It could just be a matter of memory or hard drive space or my computer's mood but I hope to solve the problem soon and you can reach me by email.

I'm Feeling A Little Bit Down Today....

There's a LOT of bull when you're a Financial Dom!  Men want to talk but they don't want to pay, they don't want to tribute and they just want to waste my time.  I f you don't feel I'm worth paying tribute to then there is no sense in me wasting your time because until you pay me a tribute there will be no conversation, no chat, no anything.  Why is it so hard and why do you make it so difficult.  Paying me a tribute is as simple as just clicking the button!  But no the men want to do everything BUT that.  That is probably why so many women complain about this also. 

Men want what they want.  But you are not going to get what you want until I get what I want! 

The Goddess Has Spoken!

You will answer to MY needs!

You are confused about whether you want to remain a REAL man or serve as one of my play things. My divinity and perfection will lead you down the road of ruin and destruction. You will answer to my needs, wants, and desires rather than your own. As a docile lackey you already have internalized  how menial your life is without an intelligent female like myself to control you. A slave's life serves little purpose without his mistress. Remember I don't need you, you need me. If you are not willing to yield to me financially, mentally, and/or physically do not continue bother me! I do not speak with fake slaves who like to pretend they have pure intentions. Under my reign you will discover how trifling you really are. Your need to sexual satisfy those disgusting manly urges and ejaculate will become a distant memory. Your penis will be clasped between your thighs and possibly never seen again. Once I own a submissive he is my property. He/she is a hardworking mule on my territory used to help me prosper. If you are an individual who possesses any self-respect or intrinsic value, my slave institution does not suit your needs. My services are appropriate for those who seek to be objectified and subject themselves to derogatory treatment. As long as you remember your status beneath and understand you will never be of my equal, you are welcome to contact me.

Preferred Age?

I would much rather prefer having my subs be at least a little bit older than me.  That narrows it down a lot but like I said before in an earlier post I just prefer older men.  Older men have a much slower pace than younger guys.  Most younger guys have just too much energy for me!

Your Chocolate Goddess LOVES Hot Chocolate!

I made myself a cup tonight and I thought I would let my admirers know that I love hot chocolate!  I love sipping it in front of a warm fireplace while the weather is cold outside!

You would have to make it for me of course!  Probably wearing an apron and nothing else!  It might also help if you are a good cook because as you can see I LOVE to eat!  I would much prefer some type of little cake or pastry, served to me with a smile and something that you made with your own two hands! 

Now if you aren't a cook then I would just have to be content with something that you bought (with your own money of course!) at the store.  If this offering is for me I hope that you have gone to one of the most expensive/exclusive pastry/bakery shops in the area.  Heck I might even make you drive out of town to go to somewhere I like!  I like to have the best and I DESERVE to have the best and that is something that YOU have to agree with!

I KNOW what men want.....

But you know what?  You are NOT going to get it until you pay a tribute to me.  I don't care how much you flatter, beg or plead!  Time and time again I will get email, IM's and chat requests from men and they just don't get it.  Until you *PAY* your respects I don't and won't do anything!

What is a money slave?

What is money slavery and financial domination?

In a nutshell, it is the spiritual act of serving manifested by the money & gifts you give… your cash is the proxy for your very soul. If I cannot physically beat you in cyberspace, I can certainly make you hurt in many more creative ways. If you cannot kneel before Me in person, you can certainly offer your heart to Me on a platter by becoming a money slave.

Men!

I can't understand the requests.  Actually I do understand and I'm just trying to be polite.  It's no use in you sending me webcam, chat and roleplay requests unless you have first PAID YOUR RESPECTS!

In no other shape or form will I honor your request.  If you don't believe me then try and see if I will do it!  You are going to be quite disappointed!

Sad - but it doesn't have to be

I belong to a forum and a woman recently posted about how everytime that she mentions that she is a big beautiful woman (bbw) it turns men off!  The replies that she got were very inspiring - basically saying that just because one man doesn't like you that doesn't mean that all of them won't like you.  Everybody has different tastes and there is a man (or men) out there for every woman because every woman is beautiful in her own way!

BBBW?

Did you know that some men still don't know what BBBW means?

My Favorite Perfume?

It is by Avon and I won't say the name but this perfume has worked wonders for me!  It must have something to do with my body's chemistry but everytime I wear it I get compliments from both men and women!

I always wear it when I want to "seduce" somebody (-:

I Am....

After a long and fruitless journey living the myth of women being submissive to men. I discovered that the natural dominance and agression I contain cannot be tamed. I am now asserting myself into my rightful position, wearing the title that I was given by way of birth, you will honor me, you will obey me, and you will learn to love it. Because I said so, because it is so, and because there is no other way into my world. My world is a wonderful place, where a big beautiful and elegant chocolate Goddesss rules all things ! I am the alpha and omega.   

BBBW Webring

Well I couldn't find one that I liked.  One sounded quite nice but it was a little too tame for me.  I want to be in a webring that celebrates being a BBBW in all of its erotic and sensual glory!  So I'm thinking about starting one myself.

It will be for BBBW Admirers too.

Guys with Webcams.....

Sometimes they can be sooooooo pushy!  Even though a gal has a webcam she would still like to be asked nicely and not pushed or bullied or yelled into a private webcam chat.  I think that is why a lot of women shy away from doing it.  If the guys would just be a gentleman and ask a little bit more nicer...................

My First Admirer?

You know my first "admirer" was strictly by accident.  He had sent me "little" something and said that he had wanted me to be happy and to thank me for giving him such a good time on the Internet.  Of course you know me!  I kind of liked it and decided that I wanted more - so that's how I started my little "business"!

By the way I still talk to my "first" every now and then - he is still very, very sweet!

When you view my Yahoo Profile

don't forget to visit my main home page at:

http://fantasyxyz.bravehost.com

my ICQ# is 140204112

I'm listed as a sex blog?

That's kind of interesting!  And its also kind of surprising since this is the first time that my blog has been listed like that.  I guess I going to have to make them proud!

How Old is Too Old?

I got this from a webpage:

What if I am too old/ugly to have an adult site?

Do you know what the answer was?  Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and one of the most popular adult websites belongs to a 61 year old woman!

How do I start my own adult website?

I see people asking about this all the time!  There's not too much that you need.  You do need a website.  You can either have your own personal website or you can use one of the websites that provides website space for free.  How are you going to make money from your website?  Are you going to post pictures, video or webcam shots and charge a subscription?  Or are you going to provide a more individual "personal" service?  It is up to you.

Older Men?

I tend to gravitate more to older men.  I LOVE older men that have that "salt and pepper" hair.  I also find that the pace is a lot more slower with older men.  They have just been around longer and don't feel the need to rush at everything.  Sometimes a woman just likes to be slowly seduced and not just rushed into everything.  Older guys like to take their time and they are especially more motivated when they know that they are being appreciated!  That just spurs them on even more!

About Me?

Well I finally got around to taking a picture of myself and putting it online.  It doesn't look like it came out too good but I'm just glad that I was able to get ANY picture online!

BBBW Chats?

I found it very interesting that I couldn't find any bbbw chats listed so I decided to start one (or two) of my own!  That way I'm ready to chat with anyone anytime and I can also set up the chat(s) as well!

What Kind Of Boyfriend Would I Have?

Everyone thinks he's a bad person, that he has no heart and that he couldn't love or ever be loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants wrong. This dude would go thirty times around the earth if you would ask him to. A person who threatens you must really have a death wish.

"Take this quiz at Quizilla"

What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)

Me & Yahoo?

I have been having a lot of problems trying to get to my Yahoo Pages!  Every now and then something will act up and I'm not able to get to my pages.  I can still do the Yahoo Messenger Thing with the chats and the webcams its just the Yahoo pages that I'm having troubles signing in to. 

Yahoo Webcam Chat(s)

I had to close my last session because all the requests for being able to view my webcam crashed my computer!  Sorry about that!

I guess he thought I was kidding!

A guy visited my website, saw the donation button and thought I was kidding!  Well I politely (and quickly) set him straight!  He thought he could sweet talk me into sending him a couple of pictures but he found out right away that HE had to send ME something first!

Another Blog?

Here's a link to my newest blog (or should I say "latest" blog).

http://www.frappr.com/fantasyxyz

I just joined this site and am learning my way around

I haven't posted in a while!

I haven't posted in a VERY long while!  I've seen a few other blogs by other black women but I haven't had a chance to look at them recently.  Glad to know that there are others out there like me that have a blog though and I want to visit and post to them too.

Well I started my little Webcam Page and Business

I kept hearing about it and people keep asking about it so I decided to find out for myself.  If it works I might even start a directly for other bbbw's that want to let everyone know about them.

So far its not too difficult.  I have my webcam and I took a picture of my tiny, tiny little bedroom.  Of course now that its online I'm going to have to make it look better!  What can I say?  As long as I have a bed to sleep in I'm cool!

Starting My Little Webcam Business......

Well we are going to see how it goes.  Everybody keeps talking about starting their own webcam business so now I decided to start my own as well. 

A lot of guys have emailed me but they have to show me a token of affection first before I will do anything.  As a matter of fact why just show me the token of affection without me having to do anything for it?

Internet Whore?

I'm really getting very curious about all the plus-sized women that say that they have earned a lot of money online.  I'm thinking that I might want to try it myself just to see if all the claims they are making are true.

Taking a few "intimate" photos of myself for my "special" clients?  And then emailing the photos to them?  I would probably start off with 2 photos per client just to see how far I could go.  I wonder how many clients would want to see a plus-sized black woman?

Another Valentine's Day has come and gone.....

I forgot about it until I saw an email - actually it was a spam/junk email.  Oh what did I do that day?  You know I really don't remember but I can tell you for sure that it wasn't anything romantic.  I am definitely going to have to work on that!  What would I have liked?  A nice romantic dinner with the guy cooking the food at his place and us enjoying the dinner in front of his fireplace with romantic music playing!

What kind of boyfriend?

Everyone thinks he's a bad person, that he has no heart and that he couldn't love or ever be loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants wrong. This dude would go thirty times around the earth if you would ask him to. A person who threatens you must really have a death wish. What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^) brought to you by Quizilla

To tell you the truth I think that this is kind of cute! If only we could choose the type of boyfriend that we could have because I already have one in mind - of course he doesn't know it yet!

My feet are bigger than I thought!

So here I am sipping some hot tea ('cause its cold and windy outside) and I decide to try on my new slippers that I bought because they were on sale! They are supposed to be for sizes 9-10 but I slipped them on and I can feel my toes pushing against the sides! My feet can't be larger than a size 10! Can they! So now you know that I have got big feet!

It's Been Awhile!

I can't believe that it's been over 2 months since I last posted here! There hasn't been a lot going on but that doesn't mean that nothing has been going on! I'm still single and to be absolutely honest I think that I want it to stay that way for now! I was kind of thinking about what kind of man it would take to make me want to "up and get married" right away and I can't honestly think of any kind...............too happy being single!

There are BBBW Admirers Everywhere?

So I'm checking my ICQ and see what's going on and I see a "plea" from someone outside the US.

"I am looking for a nice BBBW to chat with. I think they are the sexiest women on earth. Unfortunately their are not so many of them here in Holland. Wish I lived in the USA!!!!! :)"

So I'm thinking of trying to start some kind of BBBW kind of penpal type of thing.  At least the poor guy might get someone that he can talk to.

My Diary

My Diary It's cold and rainy and windy! The heater is shut off and I'm out of cigarettes! BUT I should remember the things to be grateful about. At least its not freezing outside and I don't have any tooth pain and I am going to be a Webmistress and earn lots and lots of cash!

I still don't have enough nerve

Was looking at my ICQ tonight and decided to fish around to see if I could find somebody interesting (according to certain criteria-LOL!) and I got a "hit" about a guy in MN.  He seems to really be into women and I'm really curious about how he would feel if this female started flirting with him!  He even included his private cellphone #!  Ever have those times when you just feel like some innocent flirting?

Guess What? I was treated to lunch!

It was really kind of nice!  I had just come from the Post Office and ran into one of my former co-workers.  We happily said "Hello" to one another because apart from work where would we see each other?  He was going on an errand and I thought "what the heck" I would go along with him to keep him company. 

It was really kind of perfectly innocent and we never had a "thing" we were just former co-workers.  He was nice enough to buy me lunch although at first I protested but then I gave in.  We sat outside and ate and talked a while.  Then he had to go to the laundrymat to get his laundry so we walked back there and talked along the way.  After the laundry he was on his way home - it was his day off and he was just getting things done.  He got some Chinese food and offered me some as well and I told him that he had been nice enough to buy me lunch and that I was quite full.  We then parted ways but I'm sure to see him again because he still works where I shop.

So ladies there are still some great guys out there even though we were just former co-workers and it was a nice kind of thing.

Also you know its true what they say about always looking nice because you never know when you will meet someone (or have someone treat you to lunch)!  So remember that too!  I was just hoping to get some errands done and I really wasn't "on the prowl" but I wish that I had been just a little bit more "prowl-looking"!

Toodles.......................

Ever have such a wicked crush on somebody........

that you are just consumed by your thoughts?  (and acting on those thoughts!)  Maybe I'm just feeling frustrated or bored or both and thank goodness that this crush is on an actor that hopefully I will never ever meet!

Sometimes being a girl really sucks (and I don't mean that in a good way!)

For all the pretty makeup products and tips and advice there are still some things about being female that really bites!  I know guys don't want to hear about such a disgusting topic but the maintenance involved with being female can just get to us sometimes and I know that there are a lot of women that feel this way too.

Impatience!

One of the things that I definitely am is impatient!  I want what I want, when I want and don't want to have to wait to have it!  This can be very frustrating at times.  I get angry and frustrated and just want to release all of it!

Am I talking about something in particular - Yes!  Will I say what it is? No!  But I do want it solved and taken care of RIGHT AWAY!

It's been a strange day!

I guess during times when I am feeling frustrated my thoughts turn to sex and me just wanting to burn off some excess energy!

I have the most wickedest tooth ache today!

It's really terrible when you can't afford to go to the dentist! But today I must have bit on something too hard and I could feel the pain coming! And then it started to pulsate! I took some aspirin and the pain is gone down but its there just enough to let me know to be careful when I chew or bite down on something. I'm going to have to eat soft foods for a while.

My horoscope says......

that I have a bad case of feeling wicked - LOL!

which is kind of true because I have been working all day long and just feel the need to be wicked.  My horoscope goes on to say that I should go ahead - LOL!  but just remember that I will be feeling "business as usual" by the end of the day.

Feeling a little under the weather today.....

I don't know if it's me or the weather but I have just been so warm!  I may be coming down with something and I just feel "blah"!  It's been so warm - hot even - and to me it just feels the same even though the temperature is not as hot as it was a few days ago.  I need some orange juice, some brandy and some aspirin!

So much email, so little time

I have finally gotten around to catching up on some of my email!  All the way back from January of this year - those are the emails that I'm answering now.  I have gotten a lot of very interesting email - I just don't have the nerve to follow up on them!

Yahoo Messenger - I still haven't got the hang of it yet...

I noticed that I got a few more messages from Yahoo Messenger but I still haven't quite got the hang of it yet.  I couldn't access the new messages but I'm trying to figure out how to get them.

Thoughts

I'm quite depressed today because of work because I'm not making as money as I want.  I have a lot of things to be grateful for and I am grateful for that.  But my thoughts are on one very, very big problem that I have to solve! So I am going to feel grateful for what I have and solve my problems in the exact manner that I want them to be solved.  I choose to get anything and everything that I want!

How has it been?

I see that I haven't posted for awhile.  It's probably been because I have been busy with working.  I haven't had a chance to do too much besides just work for the past few months.

I did some errands today, had a man open a door for me - that was so sweet - there are still some gentlemen in the world.

By the way men - women like having the door opened for them.  It's sweet and it makes a woman smile.  So give it a try one time and see how you (and they) like it.

kind of down today...

actually its almost 7pm and I'm a little bit down and depressed. Mostly because I don't have what I want. I'm working on it though. And even though it doesn't take too much to make me happy what little I want I don't have now so I'm quite down.

What kind of guy am I most attracted to? - It's A Quiz!

You like the trouble making types. What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics) brought to you by Quiz. Maybe in my dreams!

What kind of man am I looking for?

I guess it really should be "what kind of man do I like?" I would just like to have someone to be comfortable with. Life is hard enough to be stressed even further at home. I would just like to have someone to sit by the fireplace with enjoying a glass of wine and falling asleep in each others' arms.

Ah, Valentine's Day!

Yes I spent it alone this year! Darn! What would I have liked? Oh a nice cozy dinner by a fireplace!

Pantyhose?

I'm not a fan of wearing pantyhose but it seems men like seeing women wear them.

I REALLY have to wash my hair tonight!

Thanks to all of you that saw my webcam and complimented my hair but I have really got to wash it tonight! I'm kinda tired and I'm thinking of just taking a nap but I really should wash it. So I guess that means that if I use my webcam I'm going to be wearing a scarf!

Yahoo Messenger!

Well it took me a while to understand this program but I got curious so I decided to load it up! The program lets you "chat" with others so I decided to try it out.

Then I decided that since I have a webcam I would load that up too! Well I got so many chat requests all coming at one time that it crashed my computer and I had to reboot it. This kind of thing can get very addicting - I hope I don't like it too much!

Comments?

Well I added HaloScan to my blog and so far it looks like I got the coding right. It looks good so far on my blog. I'm going to test it out by adding a comment.

I tried that Yahoo Messenger chat thing

Don't know if I have enough nerve to actually webcam chat yet so I thought I'd give it a go tonight.

Got the blues tonight!

I was just recently fired from my job for one of the stupidest reasons I can think of! I'm feeling depressed and frustrated.

I am soooooo tired! Came home from work and thank goodness I have tommorrow off! I can get a little rest!

A few days ago I was feeling so depressed so I decided to take a bubble bath. It was nice and soothing and did a lot to relax me. I had a candle lit and jazz music playing in the background. All that was missing was a glass of wine. What was I depressed about? Oh the usual things. Things have gotten a little better since then but I know that it can turn back to being a "depression" kind of thing. Fantasy http://www.geocities.com/fantasyxyz2001/main.html

A New Year and there's snow here on the ground. Haven't gotten out much but I kind of like it that way. It's been very cold.

Hello Out There on The Internet! Well the New Year is here! I'm feeling good now because I wasn't able to get on the Internet for about 5 days! Boy did I miss it! Right now I'm going through my email now because I have a lot to catch up on. I've been daydreaming a lot too.

It's been a while since I have posted here. I have been meaning to do it but I never got around to it. For the most part I'm just feeling low. I really hate my job!